tbh im not even sad? i mean im numb still. i just theres nothing absolutely nothing and i dont really know what to do with myself. there is just nothing i desire anymore. i mean i always think i just need more booze or more blow but it doesnt help anymore. idk im just done. im too tired i dont want to do anything anymore. all i care about is arya is too young to really remember me so as long as this doesnt affect her it doesnt matter.